Thursday, January 27, 2011

Day 56-57 Weigh-in #9

Weighed myself yesterday and I lost another pound!  I know my weight loss is slow but a loss is a loss and I'm thrilled not to have gained any weigh.  Thank God!

Two weeks ago, when I gained weight for two weeks straight, I realized that I'm not going to be able to loose 100 pound in 100 days.  I'm sort of okay with this realization but it is rather disappointing.  To be honest I don't think I'm trying hard enough but when I started this weigh loss challenge, I was rushing to loose weight.  Over the last month or so I'm realizing that I can't run this thing like a sprint.  I have to run it like a marathon and it really sucks!  I know I didn't get to be over 300 pounds over night.  It was a goal that took over ten year to achieve but I thought that I could treat myself as if I'm on the Biggest Loser show and loose one hundred plus pounds in six months or less.  I'm still shooting for one hundred pounds in one hundred days but if I don't reach that goal in one hundred days I'm going to keep going until I feel I am at a comfortable weight. 

On another note, I'm debating whether or not if I should join weight watchers.  On one had they basically do all the work for you as far as calorie counting but on the other hand I have the access to the same information.  I can do research, actually more research and put together a meal plan based off the amount of calories I need to take in on a daily basis.  The only problem is I haven't done this with one hundred percent effort.  I really can't afford weight watchers but I know I don't have to do as much work when it comes to putting together a food plan.  What do you guys think?  Weight Watchers or not? 

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Day 51-55 Talk about Dilemma!

Last weekend my husband wanted to take me out because we haven't been out in a little over a month.  Friday night we went to Mikado Japanese Sushi & Steak House and the food was awesome! Yes, I ate and I ate good.  I had the steak and scallops over rice with mixed vegetables.  My husband opted for steak and chicken along with some sushi.  Saturday we decided to go to the movies to see Dilemma but little did we know we would encounter our own little dilemma.

My husband and I were running late for the movie and by the time we purchased our tickets and popcorn, we missed most of the opening credits.  The theater was small and full.  We proceeded to the back because I thought I saw a few open seats and I did but it was next to people and I don't like sitting next to anyone in the movies.  We decided to sit closer to the screen so we can have some breathing room.  Well, here's the funny part, I went to sit in the seat and couldn't fit! I had to wiggle my big hips into the seat but I still couldn't fit properly.  Finally, I had to sit on the edge of the seat and slide back only to discover that I still wasn't going to fit in the stupid chair.  My only recourse was to pretend as if I was purposely lounging in the chair watching the movie.  Talk about dilemma!  It was embarrassing but not as embarrassing if someone noticed how I was sitting.  How amazing is it that I allowed myself to grow out of a normal size public seat but the fun did not end with the chair.

After the movie, I had to use to restroom.  I walked in the bathroom with several women rushing to relieve themselves of the half gallon soda stuper they drunk themselves into, I had water by the way.  Anyway, I went into one of the stalls and found myself struggling to fit into the freakin' stall!  Great, right?  How did I manage to get into the stall?  Well, like the seat inside the theater, I had to wiggle my way to fit.  In order for me to fit into the stall, I had to straddle the toilet seat, fully clothed of course, do a 360 degree turn just to close the door.  Once I was able to close the door, I thought I would be able to comfortably fit into the stall to handle my business.  Well, I wasn't.  I don't know how I managed but somehow I was able to work out peeing in a very uncomfortable position all while not urinating on myself.  Can you believe this?  As I was peeing, I looked at my hips compared to the size of the width of the stall and I swore I was almost the same size!  I should have used the handicap stall.  No, I'm not in anyway handicap...unless you count a HUGE butt as a handicap! lol

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Day 46-50 Weigh-in #8

Two weeks in a row I struggled with losing weight and started gaining weigh back.  I felt horrible, ashamed and embarrassed.  Well, yesterday I weighted myself and I lost 5.6 pounds!  Whew!  What a load off.  I ate some junk but nothing close to the amound I ate in the past two weeks also I haven't been eating a lot of bread.  I worked out three times last week and monitored what I ate like I did when I started this journey.  I'm very proud of myself.

I know sometimes I might have ups and downs but I really didn't want to be one of those people who lost weight and gained it back several times.  I really wanted to be consistent but life happens sometimes and just like Paul said in the Bible, you must die daily.  I know this might sound silly but what I must do is "kill" is my old self in order to accomplish this goal.  Just like a cigarette smoker, alcoholic, or any type of abuse done to this temple, I have to fight to stay alive and away.  Wow am I really like an alcoholic?  That's harsh but it's true.  My alcohol is junk food and no matter how hard I try to walk away from my bottle in the shape of a flat, eight inch circle, it calls me back for another taste.  If I continue to go back and over consume, I'm drunkenly full with junk food and the sugar, instead of alcohol, stays in my system for several days.  I think I need OWA, Over Weight Annonymous lol.  Maybe I need to take my sin to the alter in church and smash it like preachers have smokers smash their cigarettes.  I would have a lot to carry! 

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Monday, January 17, 2011

Day 40-45 Weigh-in #7 My Confession

I love blogging about my weight loss success because I'm so excited and happy and I give all my success to the Glory of God!  Now, here's my confession.  The last two weeks have been really difficult for me:  family issues, laziness, exhaustion.  I haven't given up, I was just on pause.  I haven't blogged a lot in the past two weeks because if my weight gain and if you've read my previous blog you'll may remember that I'm extremely embarrassed.  For this same reason, I've decided not to blog this week.  Well, I told my husband and he said I have a duty to speak the truth regardless if it's good or bad.  So, last week I weighed myself and gained another four pounds.  Yeah too much junk eating the the past two weeks and not enough exercise but I think my next weigh-in will be a lot better.  No weigh gain!   I'm confident that I can do this.  I'm going to get this flesh in to subjection and then I will be able to move on to another challenge in my life.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Day 36-39 Weigh-in #6

Last week's weigh-in was a real shocker.  I basically undid my hard work from the previous week's lost and I am ashamed.  I let myself, God, husband and my readers down.  When I weighted myself last week and saw that I gained five pounds, yes, FIVE POUNDS, I was mortified.  I couldn't believe I allowed my old self to creep back up.  At first I thought, "What did I do wrong?  I didn't eat anything bad" but then I remembered that I ate cookies, and my weekend eating slowly became a Monday through Friday thing.  The taste of something sweet engulfed me to the point where I wasn't making the decisions anymore.  I was doing without thinking.  Eating unconsciously not taking thought or account for my actions and that's exactly how I got to be over 300 pounds.  I can't let this go on. 

Pray for me that God grant me strength to continue to succeed.  Also, drop me a line and let me know how you are doing losing weight.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Day 34-35 Insane in the Membrane!

Yesterday, my husband and I did the unthinkable...we tried the Insanity workout by Shawn T!  The reason why it's called Insanity is because you have to lose your mind in order to accomplish the workout.  Do you think I'm exaggerate?  Try it and see.  He begins with a fitness test and it last about twenty minutes.  Every two weeks, you track your improvements on the different exercises he tells you to perform.  My husband was really excited to give Insanity a try, I wasn't but I did it anyway.  If this is what he needs to get exercising, then I'm going to hate it but I'll do it.  So, we begin the workout and it's crazy!  We didn't last more than ten minutes!  My husband did a good job with keeping up with Shawn T's pace but I couldn't.  It's very difficult for me to jump and this man had us jumping and hitting the floor several times.  The reason why it's so difficult is because you do specific exercised for sixty seconds and in those sixty seconds, you have to go a fast as you can, without losing form.  I can totally see this working.  He pushes you really hard but encourage you to take breaks when needed.  His exercise routine is a lot more intense then TaeBo!

Insanity is insane!

My husband really likes Shawn T's approach to getting fit and although we couldn't finish, we started and that's what important.  What's even more exciting is that my husband and I finally worked out together.  I've been trying to get him to workout with me since we've been married.  I'm excited that he wants to exercise and even more excited that he found something that challenge him.  My husband is the type of man that needs a challenge in order for him to stay interested in anything.  This challenges him and if this is want he needs then guess what, I'm going to go insane with insanity!

Before Insanity. yes, I sucked in my stomach! lol

My husband before Insanity. No after pics b/c we were whipped! lol

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Day 30-33 New Year's Non-Resolution

Happy New Year everyone!   I pray you have a great new year and that this year will be very successful for you!  I know this year is going to be the best year of my life, I believe it because I know what God's promise is for my life. 

Anyway, I hope you didn't get caught up in making new year's resolutions.  I didn't. Making new year's resolution because they are pointless because if you desire to change your life, you will not wait until the beginning of a new year to change.  You would just change.  I am not an expert nor am I perfect.  I'm learning how to change my life at the moment a thought enters my mind.  It's not easy.  I'm 31 years old and I'm not exactly stuck in my ways but I don't like change.  Change isn't exactly good all the time especially when you can't see what the change will change.  This is why I don't like change.  You venture into the unknown and that's scary to me.  Even losing weight scares me because I have no idea what I will look like when I finally drop all this weight.  Yes, I was smaller before but not in my twenties and certainly not in my thirties. 

When I was younger, around fifteen, I started to put on a lot of weight.  Well, on several occasions, people, I have no clue who these people were, told me I look like Mrs. Piggy.  You see, my nose was shaped a little weird and I have fat cheeks. Well, when I was gaining weight, my cheeks would smash my nose like a hot dog inside a bun.  I've always been afraid to lose weight because of the unknown.  I don't want to look like that again.  Yes, I know that I'm all grown up and I probably won't look like Mrs. Piggy but I'm a little concerned.  I could always get a nose job lol.  Yeah right!

In this picture, I weighted around 220 and thought I was the boom!